happy new year to all   ƪ(˘⌣˘)┐ ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ ┌(˘⌣˘)ʃ

in 2011 was the year the hardest for me, a lot of really valuable lessons that I can. everything is already in the thread, hopefully in the next year could be even better. okey, thanks probably ever in my heart in 2011. I should be able to forget the bitterest in the past. I have to open a new sheet, prepare yourself for the next challenge.

start early in 2011 in the toughest times, but the cover was so fun. I am actually ashamed to say, you are actually gathered together from my first desire. I still keep my heart hurt for what happened at that time. but thank you guys realize that. for dika, dare, Haykal, acen, indah, Fira, didit thanks a lot, you guys are the best friend ever. Linda,  thank you for my little friend is still a lot to my best friend.

for onye, bella, thank you guys I'm also the best friend. give thanks to god because the best people for me.

plan next year:

1. PASS UN

2. enter PTN

3. longlast with you

TO YOU: in the next year are still many hurdles that must be faced, hopefully we'll both get through it. maintain mutual trust, loyalty, everything. I hope we can maintain our relationship. i love you more:)

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012

my birthday

first, I do not think there's so special on my birthday. but apparently I can surprise frommy boyfriend and my best friend. thanks a lot.
I hope on my birthday, I was more mature, more able to accept the fact, do not beselfish, self-contained, the fear of God, could be better again in the future.

for you
I really apologize yesterday may not appreciate you. I do not mean it like that, actually yesterday I was very confused what to do. I promise to fix it, please trust me. I know you are very angry yesterday I'm really sorry. love the chance for me to improve our relations.

before I tell you, thanks a lot for Abun Romansyah Liem and Muhammad Rizky because thanks to you I can now rise from the problems that I experienced. you give me the spirit, always near me when I really need someone to tell. I will always remember what you say to me. when everyone goes just you who still remain next to me, thanks a lot.

okey, now I'm not SINGLE. i have a relationship with someone. I probably can not tell you who my boyfriend because I was afraid  but do not worry someday I'll tell you.

to YOU: Thanks a lot because you make me laugh every day and I can forget my problems. you can accept me as I am, I'm spoiled, like a child, temperament but for you it does not matter. hopefully we can maintain our relationship.

i love you more:)

raisa- apalah arti menunggu

my sista graduation

"mah, ini untuk mamah. aku lulus untuk mamah", kata itu yang pertama kaka gw ucapin pda saat dy wisuda. slama 3 thun jauh dr orng tua akhrnya dy lulus murni juga ya walaupun cm D3 tapi itu udh mmbanggakan bgd bwat orng tua, begadang tiap malm untuk blajar. haru bgd ngliat suasana wisuda, nyokap gw hampir stiap moment nangis krna saking bangganya. di sela sela acara nyokap blang "ta, ca kalian jg harus bsa kaya teteh" mungkin kata itu singkat bgd tp maknanya besar bgd krna itu ngk hanya bkin orng tua bangga tp itu jg untuk diri sendri. pngn deh suatu saat nama gw d panggil dan d blang LULUS, make baju toga rasanya bangga kali ya.dan gw yakin, gw bsa seperti itu. ngk sia sia jg materi yg d keluarkan untuk kuliah. kaka gw lulusan Akbid Widya Karsa Jayakarta, selamet ya teh mksh dah bkin mamah papah bangga. gw sama caca nyusul untuk bkin mamah sama papah bangga ,
haru bgd ketika lagu cinta untuk mama di nyanyikan, ngk bsa nahan air mata

Apa yang kuberikan untuk mama
Untuk mama tersayang
Tak kumiliki sesuatu berharga
Untuk mama tercinta

Reff :
Hanya ini kunyanyikan
Senandung dari hatiku untuk mama
Hanya sebuah lagu sederhana
Lagu cintaku untuk mama

Walau tak dapat selalu ku ungkapkan
Kata cintaku 'tuk mama
Namun dengarlah hatiku berkata
Sungguh kusayang padamu mama

mamah, teteh, caca

mamah, teteh, gw sndri

when I needed you, you are nothing but this all must happen. although I can not stand here. "when you get up and down are you going to do is silence" I am still really quiet here hehhehee. I realize this is probably already running. You make me strong persist through life, you who helped me when I fall. I am now trying to own even though I knew I could not because I usually always at your help. but probably better like this, this is the best. I know you probably mad at me but understood. sometimes something that did not want to happen but it happens. but I'll always try to be myself better than before. I have a lot of trouble you, I do not want to bother you again. I know I'm wrong, I'm sorry. you who understand where I should go back, please do not blame me anymore. Thanks for everything-

facebook

heebooh bgd deh bokap gw msa mnta bkinin gw facebook, udah jaman baheula eta mah pah. ktanya sih pngen liat tmn tmn SMA dlu, mau bkin facebook aja ribetnya stngah modar hahhaha :D jaman udah kebalik kyanya yah? skrng anak yg ngajrin orang tua haahahhaha. smpt bokap gw nanya "ta kok pke email km? trus orng gk tau dong itu pnya papah?" , aku jwab ya pah abis aku bete bkin email bru pph psti lupa lupa mulu dulu pernah bkin tp gnti gnti mulu mkanya make email aku aja biar gk ribet. tau gk sh?? ampe nlf k tmnnya kbtulan tmnnya bokap anaknya tmn gw? rebek bgd deh pah kemana nnti aku sekalian bkinin twitter. dasar bapa bapa hahhahhaha, setelah berhasil tu facebook ceritanya bokap gw mau ada fotonya gw upload tu foto bkap gw, bokap gw nyaut gy "ta kok foto yg itu jelek ah", ya Allah pah namanya percobaan yg mana aja dlu hahhaha mau yg bgus bgus aja deh. gw msh sabar nurutin ganti tu foto bokap gw mau bkin album fto keluarga, methong deh gw. papah mah BM deh hahhaha, gw aja ngk punya apa gy twitter haduh haduh. gw ikutin dgn sabar dan gw ajarin bokap gw satu satu gmna cara ngsh wall upload foto chat sama org ngsh message dll deh lucu jg ternyata ngajarin bapa sendiri ahahhaha

idul fitri 1432 H

lebaran?? kalu dnger kata itu psti inget mudik kan??. sblum bhas tntang mudik gw pribadi mngucapkan selamat lebaran buat smuanya khususnya umat islam. mudik?? kata yg satu itu ngk asing bwat gw dan kluarga gw krna udh jd kgiatan rutinitas tiap tahun. tahun ini agak sedikit berbeda soalnya kmbali k thun sblum sblumnya gw takbiran d jalan. balik k rncana dulu hari pertama d bandung breng kluarga besar nyokap gw. bandung??itu loh kota paris van java, kota kembang d kira kembang smua kali ah mkanya d sebut kota kembang hhahahha :D hampir warga jakarta pda hijrah k bandung makin sumpek aja itu bandung. eh tunggu dulu knpa jd ngomongin bandung deh?? skip deh-
d Bandung ngumpul cucu, cicit, bibi, mamang, sepupu kumpul smua jd satu namanya jg sodara besar. setelah paginya ngumpul sorenya rencana kita pda k makam nenek, smua kumpul dalam satu do'a
keluarga besar nyokap :

without my family and bobby's family

caca, mamah, papah, gw, teteh

mudik gw blum slesai sampai dsni gw mesti k ciamis, dan itu sngat sngat melelahkan. jauh bgd, lwat nagrek, malangbong, ciawi lah apa lah itu hahhaha, ni foto fotonya aja hahaha

bulan ramadhan

setiap tahun sekali setiap umat islam pasti menjalankan ibadah puasa. bahkan 1 blan ini adalah bulan yg d tunggu2 oleh setiap umat manusia. kenapa? konon kabarnya (adduh gw kya cerita rakyat begini) di bulan puasa itu istrahat perut krna selama 11 blan kita sering memasukan mkanan yg belum tau sehat atau engga. mungkin gw sotoy kali, skip deh. bulan puasa jg identik dgn bukber breng pasti lw lw pada jg gtu kan???? jauh jauh hari sebelum puasa psti udh ngrencanain bwat bukber sama temen, shbat, keluarga, pacar?? bisa bisa hahahah
tahun ini gw lumyan agak buka puasa d luar, sebenernya agak males sih soalnya psti rame. yaiyalah rame ta, mau sepi? hutan noh sepi hahahha
gw share foto-fotonya aja deh hehehhe

with papyrus (ipa 3 happy terus)

hhuh! perhaps the word that I can say. for the second time I experienced something I have avoided the incident turns out. but no problem. now I try to be more accepting of the situation. thank you very much for your time you give even just a month. though a little disappointed, but I realize that you really want. not expected to end soon, but this has been your decision so I do not want to force.
if one day you ask for my feelings to you, I will always answer the same.

I really miss you

semalem tepat pda jam 21.13 hp caca berdering (lalallalililiblalala) #seperti itu kurang lebih hehehe sontak caca kaget ternyata yg nlfn Fira ( Cut Safira Salsabila ), gw bercerita sdkit tntang fira :

jd dlu fira itu anak pindahan dr Australia dy pindah k tempat dmna wktu gw sekolah dasar dlu, awal2nya dy sok bgd ngk bsa bhasa indonesia ya mungkin terlalu lama d Australia atau mungkin terlalu lama begaul x ya sama bule2 hiks hiks hiks stelah itu knalan gtu deh biasa dlu anak SD klau da murid baru pda ng gerombolin gtu deh, pdahal mah si fira blm tentu ngerti apa yg kita smua bicarain hehehe, ya stelah itu persisnya gw lupa deh gmna kejadiannya (mklum sdah 4 ato 5 tahun berlalu). hingga d suatu ketika pda saat pelajaran bahasa inggris gru meminta ank muridnya untuk buat klompok 4 orng d dlamnya. dan kebetulan gw memang udh bershabat dgn Indah Pramitasari, otomatis kt hnya bru terkumpul 3 orng (caca,gw, indah) namanya anak SD dlu ribet , dgn polosnya gw blang k fira "fir, mau ngk sklompok breng kita?" ehm fira pun mnjawab "boleh". dr situ nama klmpok kta watermelon, ngk tau knpa kt ber 4 mkin lama mkin deket ajah yaudh bershabat dan kbetulan rumah fira ngk jauh dr tempat tnggal gw hehee jamannya ank SD dlu pda bkin Geng, Genk apalah tulisannya. kt buat ber 4, dan kt namai dgn watermelon. sebenarnya pnjang bgd deh crta lucu2 menarik nyebelin dr watermelon sampe2 kt ber 4 d juluki dgn gadis centil. wwwwwwoooowwwww!

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waktu kelulusan SD gw fira dan caca berencana msuk SMP negri, sdngkan indah mungkin skrng lbh familiar teman2nya mnyebutnya iphe d Albesd. fira dan caca berhasil bsa msuk k SMP N 9 TNG sdngkan gw d SMP N 19 TNG . kdekatan kt ber 3 dgn iphe berkurang \.

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finally gw semester 2 bsa pndah k SMP 9 TNG, awal2 sbgai anak bru gw msh jaim2 lah, fira dan caca yg nemenin gw msuk k klas gw yg baru. kdekatan kt ber 3 sma iphe mkin lma mkin berkurang.

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dan kt sudah naik k klas 8 SMP ternyata gw sekelas breng fira otomatis gw duduk dgn fira, d kjadian klas 8 sngat mmbuat gw dan fira inget smua kjadian2 dr yg mnyenangkan smpai yg tdk mnyenangkan. fira pernah nangis gra2 dy d apain gtu sama seseorng yg bkin dy sngat skt hati smpai dtik ini. tp dlu gw bntuin fira, fira pun demikian. dan JENG JENG JENG !! fira memutuskan pindah k aceh mngikuti ayahnya dinas. ooowww my god. gw sedih bgd (lebbabbbaaayy ta!) dan gw pernah blang "fir klu lw pergi gw sma syapa?" fra mnjawab "msh da wiwid kan ma caca, tenang gw bkalan hbngin lw terus", "tapi fir hiks hiks(tp sbnarnya nagis ngk ya fir hahahha)" tata. pas detik2 kberangktan fira, fira krumah gw seharian dan kt ngobrolin bnyak tntang sgala hal, smpe janji bhwa kt akan terus bersahabat dan jngn sombong terus sms atau tlf ngash kabar. 

d suatu mlam fira akhirnya benar2 pergi, gw sngaja pergi kluar rumah dgn alasan mau k alfa pdahal mau liat fira gw ngk smpet liat dy d saat terakhir. fira pun pergi , "ta, tenang nnti gw SMA udah blik gy kok k tngerang!" janji fira.

#seminggu berlalu tnpa fira

#sebulan berlalu msh tnpa fira

#setahun berlalu msh tnpa fira

#4 thn berlalu dan mash tetap tanpa fira

smpai detik ini fira blm jg balik k tangerang, walaupun pas liburan UN smp fira sempat blik k tngrng itu jg pun ngk lama tp gw ttp bsa ktmu fira dan sempet jalan breng jg sih, smpai detik ini kta msh kontak2an selayaknya seperti dlu. janji kt ber 3 : kalu slah satu kt ada yg pnya pcar kash tau , alhasil sampai detik ini kt ber 3 mnepati jnji kta. walaupun telat2 dkit lah mklum hehehe 

fira blang gni "klian mah curang gw trus yg nlf kalian tp klian mna lupa sama gw" gw pun mnjawab "oke oke next time ya fir", "next time mulu. boong klian mah" sewot fira . ahhahahahhahhahhahhahah gw ktawa ngakak.

tp gw jnji fir suatu saat gw bkl nlf lw, oh ya gw dsini slalu nunggu lw pulang. gw sering kirim sms k fira "fir , i miss you, i love you, kpan k tngerang". ngk akn pernah berhenti gw sms dan nanyain kpan lw blik k tangerang. lw shabat gw, dan kta pnya beberapa ksamaan. moga2 lw bca post ini untuk lw. fffiiiiiiiiirrrrarrrraaaa i miss you, n gw pegang janji lw klau lw blik k tangerang stelh lulus SMA lw blang smalem ntu udah 80%, gw ttp nunggu lw, gw slalu k inget stiap gw lwat rmah lw, setiap lw tlf gw slalu pngen nangis. 

 i miss you, i love you more fir. :*

#berikut foto-foto fira#

  

i really miss you

i love you fir 

fir, kpan blik k tngerang?

NOTE : indah, gw berharap lw bsa sperti dlu gy breng2 ma kt ber 3. dsni kta ber 3 msh kya dlu kontak2an. gw berharap suatu saat lw breng2 gy sma kt ber 3.

Camp Roc-This Is Me

make mistakes repeatedly

entah sampai kpan gw bsa berhenti mlakukan kslahan ini. gw tau ni slah tp knpa gw slalu berulang ulang kali bhkan gw ngelakuinnya sering. oohhh my god, knpa?

I know you've got to live and someone who you want, I'm sorry because I need time to get out of your life. give me time, time comes I promise not to go back into your life again. now there's someone on your side so please do not ever contact me again. yesterday, you sent a message to ask me what right I had a boyfriend who has a car. why do you ask about it? I'm not is not important anymore in your life right?
when I was you're girlfriend and finally I decided our relationship you ever send me a letter,

 This is the letter you've ever written with the blood of your own:

 
" I'm actually very disappointed with your decision to break our relationship. I can not forget you and the events of our time going out. I want to say
I love you
I wrote this with myblood because I want you to know that I will always love you forever and I'm willing to sick, sore, or anything i do for you.
remember!
i will wait you to come back forever" 

 
what is this still apply to me? I feel I have no valid right? why are you writing this for me?

 if you can not keep your promise to wait i returned to you, you better not ever write it

  now, I would not go back in your life and for you hopefully you can be happy with someone who is on your life now.

hypocrite!!

orang yang menghina kita, yg menjelek-jelekan kt, ngomongin kta d belakang, memandang kta sebelah mata maka merekalah orng yg tdak bsa melihat kita d depan hnya bsa melihat dr blakang saja.
biarkan air mataku hnya tertuju pda tuhan. aku tak ingin menangis cman gra2 mreka! biarkan mereka mngatakan apa tentang driku AKU adalah AKU, apa yang ada dalam diriku ya itu AKU dan AKU berhak apapun yg AKU lakukan dlm hdupku, biarkan pahala dan dosaku menjadi tanggung jawabku pda tuhan.

#ibu

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Yang selalu beri ku penerangan
Selembut citra kasihmu kan
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Sinari hidupku dengan kehangatanmu

Bagaikan embun kesejukan hati ini
Dengan kasih sayangmu
Betapa kau sangat berarti
Dan bagiku kau takkan pernah terganti

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Kaulah ibuku cinta kasihku
Terima kasihku takkan pernah terhenti
Kau bagai matahari yang selalu bersinar
Sinari hidupku dengan kehangatanmu

Kaulah ibuku cinta kasihku
Terima kasihku takkan pernah terhenti
Kau bagai matahari yang selalu bersinar
Sinari hidupku dengan kehangatanmu
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#haddad alwi feat farhan

happy new year.

although late but no problem, happy new year all
I hope in the new year is a new day, new life, new spirit, more mature, more patient, more diligent, more remember god, maybe a new boyfriend hheehhehe  ƪ(˘⌣˘)┐ ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ ┌(˘⌣˘)ʃ

bye past the welcome new sheet, goodbye love and welcome new love
 hhhhaaaaayyyyyeeee: D

"if the step does not mean your life stops until here, cry if you must cry laugh if you must laugh! life is full of surprises, not sure this is a lesson that can strengthen the self"

welcome to 2011 and goodbye 2010

goodbye holiday

gw bersyukur bgd bsa ngersain liburan bner2 ppplllloooongg bgd. ya walupun libur cm seminggu tp gw usahain liburan x ni lbh mnyenangkan. ya gw bersyukur bgd msh bsa ktmu sama kakek gw ya walupun dy udh pikun bhkan lupa klau gw cucunya seengganya gw jd temen bcara bwat dy. bapa, i love you so much
kadang suka keinget ajah klau gw ngk bsa tdur cm bapa yg nemenin aku. dulu stiap liburan atau ngk puasa bapa slalu jmput k tngerang tp skrng udh ngk gy T___________T, dlu wktu gw msh kecil emng dasr anak kcil x ya gw blang "kek, kakek ma nenek mninggalnya nanti ajah ya klau tata udh pnya anak?" n kakek n nenek cm tediam ajah ngeliatan tampang gw yang polos hehehe (namanya ank kcil ska nanya yg aneh2)
n gw nyesel bgd ketika nenek mnggal gw ngk da d smpingnya apa gy fto breng mkanya gw ngk mau ngulangin kslahan yg itu gy. pa walaupun bapa lupa sma tata tp bapa sma nenek slalu d hti tata kok :'*

liburan x ni jg jaln2 k tman matahari loohh hhahaa (sdikit norak hehe)
sekilas fto2nya ajah ya hehhe